If we cant see our Ego... It is running the show.

This is an exchange I had with a coaching client today. 

Coaching Client(3/11):
Having a rough time with feeling like I can go on with all of this its probably going to pass but I'm fighting sabotage

Coaching Client(3/11):
Already breathing

Me (9:00 PM):
Good catch.

Me (9:02 PM):
Dont fight. Allow the feelings to washover you fully. Once the storm is gone and you have felt what you need to feel... find a thought that elevates your vibration.

Coaching Client(3/11):
When I try to dream or hope about my body changing I get so anxious my throat closes and I can't breathe

Coaching Client(3/11):
It happened on the stairwell and tonight sabotage stuffs it back down

Coaching Client(3/11):
Ok ill try that

Me (9:05 PM):
I propose your ego still believes it is not worthy and therefore guides you to do things that sabatoge your higher intention.

Me (9:07 PM):
You must be able to watch and notice your ego as something other than your higher self. When you can see it you can choose how you will be. When you cant see it, it is choosing for you.

This conversation reminded me of the wisdom in the book Awareness. 

Here are some notes on it from Brian Johnson.  

IT’S DEPRESSED

“Never identify with that feeling. It has nothing to do with the ‘I.’ Don’t define your essential self in terms of that feeling. Don’t say, ‘I am depressed.’ If you want to say, ‘It is depressed,’ that’s all right. If you want to say that depression is there, that’s fine; if you want to say gloominess is there, that’s fine. But not: I am gloomy. You’re defining yourself in terms of the feeling. That’s your illusion; that’s your mistake. There is a depression there right now, but let it be, leave it alone. It will pass. Everything passes, everything. Your depressions and your thrills have nothing to do with happiness. Those are swings of the pendulum. If you seek kicks or thrills, get ready for depression. Do you want your drug? Get ready for the hangover. One end of the pendulum swings over to the other.”

I love that.

Feeling down?

Look at “It.”

Say, “It’s a little down today.”

YOU are NOT the depression. Observe it. See it as separate from your purest self.

And, let it pass. (Pretty, please. :)